my feelings

i deal with so much shit everyday from everyone, im not going to let that bring me down one bit, it's not worth it. It has never been worth it. My dad wants me back in his life but ignores me when we're suppose to see each other, you wonder why i hate you. I give everything i have to people which is my mistake and i get nothing in the end but i still walk away with a smile on my face cause that's who i choose to be. Everyone has it rough it's up to ourselves to know that. Think about others before you think of yourself.

Nightmare

Honestly now i hate the idea of it more than ever. You pay 8 dollars to go through the rooms that are suppose to scare you into loving god and accepting jesus into your life. So at the end you sign a paper that says "you have accepted jesus into your life" so I've accepted jesus 4 times? You can't accept jesus by signing a paper and saying you did. I'm sorry but all they want is money.

Yesterday

Cassie and I  went to cherry berry with Ashon and Jessica. While we were there one worker came up to me and tried to act "cool" with me. This worker was a person who made fun of me last year and gave me a lot of crap. He said "hey" and I said "why are you talking to me?". Then he came back out and tried to shake my hand and I said "wtf are you doing? go away". He got embarrassed and went in the back. I hate that kid.

Untitled?

So i was suppose to sell my pa system today but the buyer was having second thoughts and something told me not to sell it. So i guess thats a sign that i should continue some form of music, right? Well i'm going to just chill and go with the flow and let whatever come my way. So hopefully something will present itself to me and hopefully it'll work out unlike that joke virtues. Most deff.

Virtues=a big fucking waste of time

Lets see it all started with a IM i got from Anthony Miller asking if i wanted to start a band with him. I said "yeah sure" so he got Anthony Castleberry and I got Austin Crump and he got Kyle Shoulders. We had our first "band" practice or whatever the fuck you wanna call it. I called it a joke to be honest with you. So we had 3 more "band" practices and I had enough of that. I could tell Kyle hated it and I don't blame him, he had better things to do. We were going no where it was the biggest waste of time ever. It wasn't the music I wanted to do at all. I wrote lyrics for all the songs which wasn't easy but i did it. I didn't just want to scream cause honestly i fucking hate screaming with all my heart, I like singing. But NOOOO Anthony has to sing and blah blah. I'm sorry who's fucking pa system and fucking mircophones were being used? Who wrote the fucking lyrics for the songs? Which we never got music for. I didn't want to do the gay ass deathcore shit that we were suppose to do. I actually wanted to have music that people could relate to and understand the words too. Not music like chuga chuga chuga wee wee shit. I quit once because the shit was a waste of time. Then he told me "hey we can program the music on my computer!" so i didn't wanna be a bad friend so i jumped back on board. Then that went no where so i quit again. Then a couple of weeks later. I get another phone call "hey this tylyr kid said he has people that can play our music with us so we can play a show!" So i jumped back on board AGAIN. So we get a show to play september 10th and i knew we were drop out. We had NO music! We got together on a sunday at 8 fucking am for "band" practice. I show up and there's only one guitar player and Anthony and I. We get asked "can you three just play the show?" I just looked at him and was like "what the fuck?" That whole thing was a joke so i quit. Then Anthony quit and he said "i'm keeping the name virtues btw" well shit i was preparing to fight you for the name virtues! No that was a gay name sorry. All together that had to be the biggest waste of fucking time i have ever spent in my whole entire life. Thank you for wasting 3 months of my life and wasting my whole summer! :D I just sold pa system and my microphone because i'm done with music because all i see is a waste of time now thanks to you!